Rationale:
This project was a means of visually articulating thoughts that I find difficult to share with others. Through animation sequences, visual and musical motifs, I aim to convey a sense of shame, isolation, and guilt that we all experience (or I'm projecting), but goes unacknowledged. The project is entirely auto-ethnographic; my primary source of narrative material was drawn from a collection of video diary entries I began recording in 2021.
My intention of prioritising process and experimentation over outcome remained throughout this project. I allowed myself to discover some techniques that led me towards an outcome I couldn't have imagined. This approach was a breath of fresh air; it made me truly appreciate creating again.
I created this entire project in an electrical unit closet in college, which I hope to use as an exhibition space at the graduate exhibition. I chose to use this closet as an exhibition space because it supports an architectural atmosphere that influenced my process and enforces the central themes. I would have approached my work differently if I were working in a different space.
Undergoing this project has also allowed me to consider my place in the creative world. I have been contemplating the nature of design over the past few months in particular, and I have come to the realisation that I am not a designer. Design serves a sense of purpose that is much larger than my creative intentions. I believe that considering oneself as a designer upholds a sense of responsibility. Part of me believes that rejecting the label of 'designer' is an act of selfishness.
My final project outcome does not aim to solve anything or gain a particular understanding of a specialised subject. It is self-serving. I may not be fortunate enough to progress into the art/design world beyond graduation because of my attitudes towards design, so this project felt like my last chance to make something that is reflective of my own interests, while being facilitated to do so. I am grateful to have been facilitated to create for the past four years, which will be coming to an end as I approach graduation. I really have learned to appreciate the process, so I know that my creative journey will continue, even if it's just for recreational purposes.
Experimenting with format.
Demonstrating architectural atmosphere.
Tests and experiments.